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Wednesday, April 18, 2012

K- Kickoff to Costa Rica

I'm taking a mini Holiday, to get away from it all.  Sometimes, you just gotta get away.  Some distraction, sun, drinks & good friends always do the trick.  I just read that Demi Moore steps out for the first time since treatment.  Can you believe that she took this long??  Jesus!  I know it won't take me that long.  But then again, she was married to Ashton for 6 years.  I wonder if she knew that it wasn't going to last when she married him and was willing to sacrifice it all, just because Love Wins.  Every time.  I think so, in fact...I think she knew exactly what she was getting herself into.  As did I.  Because I knew that he was 6 years younger than me.  And not only that, he was a drug addict, alcoholic when I met him.  He was so much fun!  But that fun fizzles.  And I never let him continue those habits after we were together.  He promised he'd stop, for me.  I wasn't enough.  And now he has chosen everything else except for me.  I didn't lose though.  I had an amazing relationship for 3 years with the little bastard.  As stupid as most people would think I was to continue that relationship...including my own parents (both did not approve of him for me)... I stuck with him, thru thick and thin.

And it's time for me to move on.  SOOOOOO..... with that said....


Stay tuned for pictures my friends.  It'll be refreshing!!!
Turning a new leaf in my life.


J- Joao

My great friend from Sao Paulo Brazil came to visit me in NY.  Not before I had to take a last minute work trip to LA.  So what does he do?  We meet at the airport, and he comes with me to LA!  Ha! What a sport.

There, he toured LA while I worked on his own.  And when I wasn't working...he showed me around my own home town.  There were so many places he took me that I hadn't been.  So much so, that he did not believe that I was actually from there.

I did take him to the happiest place on earth of course, DISNEYLAND!  And we had a blast.
Special thanks to my sweet cousins who helped me show him around.

We later met back in NY, where he continued to see the beautiful neon lights in Times Square and explore the city.

During the time he was here, we both had our hearts broken.  He by his significant other (who was traveling with him at the time), and me by my x-boyfriend.  Somehow, he can't seem to escape my thoughts.  I think I love him too much.  But I'm going to need to learn how to just let him go.  When you love something, you just let it go.  And this is what I am going to have to do.  Two ships passing in the night.  We just happened to stop and dance a little bit while passing.  It's time to sail on, and away.  Good bye to you Jeffrey.  It was beautiful while it lasted.  Messy at times, but still beautiful.

Jo-  this is for you too.  Be strong.  Live life to the fullest, as I know you always do.  Life is too short to be unhappy.  I was listening to a Whitney Houston song on the way to the airport today...  "It's not right, but it's okay...I'm gonna make it anyway.  Pack your bags, baby leave the key.  I'd rather be alone, than unhappy."

We are going to be ALL RIGHT.  :)

Love you,

In & Out- what a hamburgers all about.

Tower of Terror- Disney with Joao

Joao with Meeeendy!  

Friday, April 6, 2012


To all of you who walk past something beautiful and take it for granted... open your eyes. Take every bit of life in. It's all around you. I have been guilty of this a few times. But everytime I stop, quiet the noise going on around me, and pause. I feel it. I feel lucky to be in this life, and to have beautiful friends, family, health. And life goes on. Beauty is everywhere, and in the eye of the beholder. Love yourself, first and foremost. The rest will follow. (I think that may be an "En Vogue" song... YESSSS!!!) Stay tuned for images... I am in Cali at the moment. Enjoying the moments.